Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Click-bait religion

[Originally this was going to be religious listicles and all I had worked out was Ten things... and Almost a hundred things...]

This one weird trick will let you be a decent human being
(the golden rule)

The six most important days in history
(Creation of the world, story one, from Judaism and derivatives)

Ten things God does NOT want you to do
(The Ten Commandments)

An boy and an angel go on a road trip, you won't believe what happened next
(The Book of Tobit)

Almost a hundred things wrong with the Catholic Church
(The 95 Theses)

Twelve people who get thrones on Olympus; You won't believe who has to sit on the floor
(Gods are people too, so I stand by the use of "people" above.  The 12+1 Olympian gods of Greek mythology)

Eight simple steps to escape suffering
(The eight-fold path)

Five tricks to living a righteously awesome life
(The pillars of Islam)

Eight worlds you didn't know existed (and one that you live on)
(The nine realms of Norse mythology)

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I wanted to have more from a larger variety of faiths, but as you can see above, my creativity was already wearing pretty thin.  Share your own in the comments.

Monday, June 8, 2015

The possiblity of physical dichotomy being used to explore non-cis narratives in sci-fi or fantasy (and idea Splatoon gave me)

Ok, so, there's the game called "Splatoon" (appears to be a portmanteau of splat and platoon) that has taken the idea of shooting and used it to create an entirely new genre of video games that no one has really come up with a good name for yet and most people are trying to cram into the existing "shooter" pigeon hole.

There's a lot to talk about in regard to innovation, formalism in game design, and a willingness to try new things.

For example, some people have described it as paintball where the characters can turn into squids (I was sold then and there), but it's not paintball because the idea is not to shoot the enemy but instead to color as much territory as you can in your own color.  Shooting the enemy can help (they have to wait to re-spawn if you "kill" them) but that's not the point.  I heard one guy who wasn't yet a professional game developer (he is now) suggest something with a similar dynamic as a joke, but as far as I know no one has ever come up with a game like this before.

That's amazing and worthy of great discussion because to create something new is always impressive, more so when you didn't need new things to do it (you just needed to use the old things in a new way.)

That's not what I'm going to talk about.

This is:


Recent years have seen a revolution in the field of combining toys with video games (see: Skylanders) and now it seems like everyone's doing it.  Disney has Infinity.  Nintendo has Amiibo.

These are the inklings.  Orange girl, green squid form.  Blue boy.  These are not, remotely, the only inklings.  There's a nice high resolution render of a team of inkling boys in pink because they're not color coded by gender.  Boys and girls come in all the same colors.  These are simply the examples used to make the Amiibo figures.

They don't have hair.  What looks like hair is the part of them that stays the most squidy.  When they transform four tentacles become their human limbs, four become very small in the back, and two (squid have ten, remember) stay reasonably large.

But note that the girl and boy tentacles are different.  the girl ones are long.  The boy ones are short (and bound in an elastic band or three.)

As squid they all look the same, the only difference is color.  An orange boy and an orange girl look exactly the same.  But then they transform and there's a massive sexual dichotomy.  (Unless it's keeping the tentacles in the elastic band that causes them to remain short in which case there's a massive physical dichotomy based on gender norms.)

And this strikes me as something that could be used (fan-fiction writers get on this) to explore how complicated gender really is.

There's nothing to indicate that the length of the tentacles is a matter of choice, all girls have them the same (long) length as do all boys (for the short length.)

They also express in a different way, the girls' go forward, the boys' go backward.

It is, in many ways, what cis-bigots want: a situation where male and female are clearly and unmistakably identifiable at a glance.

Which means that it's also a situation where non-cis people are forced to hide or stand out.  A trans-boy will presumably have long tentacles, he can pull them back and tie them like a cis-boy, but they'll still be long.

An agender person has to decide what to do when there is this clear gender identifier.  Do you do whatever isn't traditional for your body (wear them loose if you have short tentacles, wear them bound if you have long ones) do you tuck them in your clothing so your tentacles aren't visible?

Someone who is genderqueer has similar concerns.  Someone who is genderfluid probably wants to go back and forth.

And whatever is going on with all of this, it is all in stark contrast to the time as a squid where everyone looks exactly the same so their bodies can't be disagreeing with their identity on anything because whatever your gender or lack thereof, your body fits it since the squid body is the same for all possible gender related things.

All of this, to me, suggests the possibility for using the setting to explore the complexity of gender and the difficulty of living in a place where you're expected to fall into a strict cis dichotomy.

But it would have to be fan fiction or some such because the game is about painting the town in a literal fashion.

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Sci-fi and fantasy have traditionally been able to explore social issues by making things that take things to extremes.  "ALL OF MY PEOPLE ARE WHITE ON THE RIGHT SIDE!" works so well (in a way the rest of the episode really doesn't) because it takes certain things to extremes, two things really.

One thing is that it makes it really fucking clear that racism is absurd.

Something that's focused on less is that it takes visual difference to an extreme.  The half faced people never have difficulty knowing which slot to put someone in.  They are literal black on one side and literal white on the other.  There are no shades of grey and thus no space for confusion.  It's a racist's paradise where you never have to be worried that you accidentally thought one of THEM was really one of US.

It's a setting where there's no "passing".

The episode never explored that, the moment everyone focuses on is the only strong part of the episode.  The rest of it is either weak, mired in false equivalence, or both.

Not having passing be an option is a useful device because the fact of the matter is that a world where passing is necessary, or even a thing at all, is one where things are still fucked up.

People can and should have their own ideas on how they want to look and there's nothing wrong with a trans man wanting to look like certain cis men do or a trans woman wanting to look like certain cis women do.  But that's not what passing is.

Passing is when the only way for a trans man to be accepted as a man is when he's mistaken for a cis man and when a trans woman can only be accepted as a woman when she's mistaken for a cis woman and that's fucking bullshit.  Trans men shouldn't have to pass as men because they are men, trans women shouldn't have to pass as women because they are women.

And, moreover, passing eliminates everyone who isn't binary to begin with.

In a setting where passing as cis is impossible people are forced to either accept people or be bigots, because there's no way to have the real world bullshit standard of, "It's ok to be trans so long as I don't know you are."

Trans used without the "*" because here I'm only talking about people who are firmly in the gender binary.  Like I said, the idea of passing erases everyone else entirely.

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So, again, the clear dichotomy made me think about how a setting with such a thing could be used to explore how gender isn't nearly as simple as a dichotomy.

Very short version: a setting where non-cis people can't pass as cis is a setting where it's possible to explore how very much diversity there is in non-cis people and throw (some of) the problems they face into sharp, easy to understand relief.  (Or, show a world as it should be and have a fun setting where no one in it even considers thinking the things that lead to the problems.)

Sunday, June 7, 2015

Mad Max: Fury Road - I spoil all the things.

(content note: slavery, lack of bodily autonomy, post apocalyptic stuff,)

[Added after I finished writing] I, uh, think I had a point.  Not sure what it was.  This ended up being just a play by play reaction dump.[/added]

The movie, in my opinion, started off too slow.  Other than that, I loved the thing.  I do have complaints and world building questions and things I would have liked to see more of, but it's officially the best Mad Max movie yet and a really good action movie in general.

People who are assholes say that the movie is trying to sneak feminism into movies using explosions as cover.  Two things.  First off, as Lonespark pointed out to me, "Feminism and Explosions" (or was it "Feminism with Explosions") sounds like a movie well worth watching.  Second, it's not.

It looks feminist because everything else is so crap in comparison but years from now, if we've made decent progress in the world, people will watch it (I think it'll hold up over time) and won't think feminism.  What makes it attractive to feminists is that there should be loads of fucking movies like it.  The things that are feminist are things that shouldn't have to have an "-ist" attached to them at all.

It takes bodily autonomy seriously.  It takes female person-hood seriously.  It understands that it's ok for a movie to have a bunch of women in the cast.  It understands that women should talk to each other about things that it makes sense for them to talk to each other about which is a category not limited to men (or shopping, or feminine coded activity, or other stereotypes.)

None of these things are supposed to be feminist.  In a perfectly egalitarian world there would still be feminist movies (just like there would still be civil rights movies of all kinds), but this wouldn't be one of them.  It would just be a movie.

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Ok, so, to start off, Max isn't quite sane, he's haunted by the ghosts of his wife and, especially, daughter.  He failed to protect them, they're dead, and he's constantly trying to get away from audio and visual hallucinations of them.

This gets to something where it's good to look check things because I remembered the order of the original films wrong, I thought the first one wasn't first and was a prequel, but it turns out they came out in chronological order.

The first movie covers him becoming a broken man with nothing to live for.  His wife and, in the original, son are murdered partway through and he goes on a revenge spree that, once over, leaves him with nothing.  He drives off.

Then the apocalypse happens (previously it was a mere dystopia) and the movies worthy of one's time takes place.  The thing is, by the time the movies start Max has completely moved on from the death of his wife and child.  Revenge apparently allowed him to put it behind him.

I'm not particularly a fan of people haunted by the ghost of their creepy dead child, but at least this new Max has a response to their deaths beyond, "I'm gonna kill everyone responsible and then forget about them."

Anyway, he gets captured.  He's useful for his blood.  Healthy people are hard to come by, and apparently blood transfusions help the not-healthy enforcers of the big bad warlord.  (Joe.)

Enter Furiosa.  The citadel, where the Joe rules, is tapped into an aquifer.  He controls the only major water source seen in the movie, uses it to grow plants, and additionally has human slaves that he milks.  It does not produce oil (thus can't produce gas.)  It does not produce bullets.  Thus it has trade with places that do produce those things.  Thus Furiosa.

Furiosa is a high ranking member of Joe's society and is taking a shipment to those places to bring back a shipment of gas and bullets.  She's got a heavily armored eighteen wheeler and escort vehicles.

Also, she has a prosthetic left forearm.  No one talks about this in the movie because there is no reason to.  When, for whatever reason, she doesn't have the prosthesis, she is not magically made useless.  (It is a painfully and repeatedly bad thing in fiction that has people who use assistive devices are completely unable to function without them.  See: "I'm slightly nearsighted... I dropped my glasses, I CAN'T SEE ANYTHING," for a very common example.)  She obviously isn't just as capable without her prosthesis because if she were there would be no reason to use it, but she's still pretty damn capable (which matches my extremely limited real world observation.)

All of which is to say that the movie portrays a character with a non-standard body well and doesn't ruin it by patting itself on the back for doing so.  That is so fucking rare.  Well, rare in a movie that's not about someone having a disability.  There are some good biographies out there.  But off the top of my head when it comes to non-biopics only three movies I like come to mind that do that.  this is one of them.  And that is bullshit, there should be so many more.

Anyway: Furiosa.  The plot starts when she makes a hard left turn for unexplained reasons.

The warlord panics and runs through his place (which is when we get a look at his plant growing and milking operations) and realizes that his "breeders" are gone.  They're slaves; they're breeding stock.  Five beautiful and, perhaps more importantly, healthy women with whom Joe has sex to produce heirs.

Even the reasonably healthy people we'll meet later in the movie are amazed at how healthy these five women are, so presumably they were taken specifically because of their health in this post-nuclear-apocalypse world, chosen from the entire population he controls.  Even Joe the warlord isn't free from being damaged by the carcinogenic nature of the world, but they are.  He wants healthy heirs.

These slaves are running away because they believe that no one should be owned, not them, not the children they may one day have.  Their leader is estimated to be a month or so from giving birth.  There is a second reason which is exclusively about the children that may have: they don't want them to be warlords.

By their own accounts they seem to have lived pretty well if you ignore the glaring fact that they lacked bodily autonomy.  They don't ignore that fact, as well they should not.  I'm not going to talk about rape, because the movie doesn't, but because of their status as breeders their lack of bodily autonomy by definition included that.  Like I said, I'm not going to talk about it, but I wanted to have an acknowledgement that that is what must have happened, because otherwise it might seem like I'm discounting it because they weren't injured or some such.

So, Furiosa has gone AWOL with the breeders, her crew doesn't know that.  They just know that the boss has made an unexpected turn.  I think that there was a missed opportunity here.  The people who are working for her owe their ultimate loyalty to Joe, but their boss is Furiosa.  Granted a high speed chase while various people try to kill you isn't the ideal time to try to convince people to join you in treason, but I wonder if someone of them might have sided with her if they'd known that she was going to "the green place" with slaves she's freed.

(The green place is where Furiosa is originally from.)

Anyway, I said that her making the left turn set off the plot, and so it does.  Joe the warlord musters his entire army to chase after his stolen slaves.  He doesn't just see it as someone having stolen his property (the slaves themselves) he sees it as his children having been stolen.

He calls for aid from the city state that produces gas and the city state that produces bullets.

Worth pausing for world building points here.  Most of America is water rich.  We have severe problems because we're people-heavy, we grow crops that can't be sustained with local water, we move water all over the place, and so forth, but come apocalypse most of America isn't going to be screwed over for water.  A lot of it will, there is no doubt, but much of it not so much.  We in many parts of America can therefore forget that water is the most valuable resource there is.  Fertile land is an important second, but it's useless without water.

Mad Max is an Australian apocalypse.  It remembers that water matters.

The people who have the oil and the people who have the weapons have to bow to the people who have the water.  Part of this is because the citadel is not at ground level so they can't just drive in and take the place.  The rest of it is because siege is impossible,  Even if the water-having people run out of gas and weapons, so what?  They've got water and food, the people on the outside wouldn't.

So now there are three armies converging on Furiosa, and she's heading through enemy territory anyway which means that she's already picked up other adversaries.

At this point I said to Lonespark that it seemed like the three places were ripe for conquest if anyone was watching.  With the armies out, there are presumably only skeleton crews defending home turf.

So where is Max in all this?  A prisoner.  Joe the warlord has appropriated Norse Myth.  His soldiers live and die by his command in hopes of being reborn in Valhalla.  Now in the biggest conflict that's shown up, a war-boy named Nux looks like he'll have to sit it out because he needs blood.  Max is his donor.

He refuses to sit it out and goes to die in glorious battle.  But he needs the blood.  He brings Max with him strapped to the front of his vehicle.

A couple of notes.  One, there are no electronics.  Signals are done via mirrors reflecting sunlight (for fixed positions) and colored flares.  This is why no one on Furiosa's rig or in her escort knows that she's gone AWOL and is committing treason.

Two, warlord Joe wants his slaves back alive and untouched.  That means that when the pursuit eventually catches up they end up helping her by fighting off the enemies who were attacking her because that's the immediate threat.

Furiosa's treason is only discovered by those with her when she drives into a sandstorm to lose the pursuit.

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The reason that I feel like the movie started too slow is that this is when things really get going.  Max wakes up after the sandstorm.  He had prevented Nux from going out in a literal blaze of glory, and now somewhat more free he is able to pull out the tube transporting his blood.  He is not, however, able to break the chain connecting the two.  His attempt to simply break Nux fails because the only thing to try with is a shotgun that doesn't work.

He hears noise and carries Nux, the chain, the vehicle door the chain went through, and the broken shotgun toward the noise.

There he finds Furiosa and the breeders.  It's time they got names.  They are, The Splendid Angharad, Capable, Toast the Knowing, The Dag, and Cheedo the Fragile.  Honestly, I didn't pick any of that up.  I'm not good with names.

Angharad is the leader.  They're using bolt cutters to remove their chastity belts, also getting water from the tank on the transport.

Max holds them at gunpoint (recall that the gun doesn't work) to force them to share water and cut the chain.  Getting the water works out, the chain leads to a three way fight because Nux wakes up.  Eventually a gun that does work is introduced.  Max ends up with the gun, the only shot fired in a miss.  Nux ends up with the clip.  The two team up to apparently win, Nux is the one to get the chain off Max, and is going on about how they can have whatever they want now that they've captured the breeders alive and unharmed, at which point Max turns on Nux and steals the truck.

Max is kind of an asshole.

Furiosa is smart, she's made her truck so that it can't run for long unless she starts it using a specific sequence, so they get back to the truck and end up all heading off together with Max holding everyone at gunpoint.

Shared fighting and they end up in an uneasy alliance.

More stuff.

Nux misses his second chance for a glorious death.

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Max and Furiosa are shown as equals, not in every way because that would be silly, Max is better at some stuff, Furiosa is better at other stuff.  The others have basically nothing in the way of combat to offer.  So they do other things.  One of the first impressive things they do is be human shields because Joe will not let anyone shoot them.  It works out for a while, but then bad things happen and they lose Angharad.

Angharad was the leader of the "breeders", she was Joe's favorite wife.  She was the one who convinced the others that people should never be owned.

There's major fallout for all involved.

Cheedo wants to go back.  Compared to everyone else they lived well and if the alternative is death it seems pretty appealing.  Most movies would treat her as a coward to be dismissed, instead the others argue with her, try to convince her to stay with them (and succeed.)  This is good.  This is good because people get to determine for themselves what they will and won't endure.

Nux is on the rig, he'd be in a great place to strike were he not in utter despair.  He knows that Joe, to him more than a warlord but instead the leader of the cult, the person who would deliver him to Valhalla, saw Nux's decision to bring Max result in the death of Angharad.  he knows that his third attempt at glorious death has failed and thinks the gates are forever shut to him.

Joe is in mourning because what was one month away from being his son died.  He's a lot less broken up about the fact that Angharad is dead.

There is moving on.  Capable finds Nux and comforts him, then the rig gets stuck in the mud.  Mud needs water, but it isn't good water.  The trees are dead.  Other than crows there's no apparent life here.

The others find out about Nux when he offers to help, which he does.

Also, Max managed to admit he's not the most awesome person ever when he takes two of the three shots they have with a long range rife, misses, and gives it to Furiosa in defeat.  She makes the remaining shot count.

At this point Warlord Joe is still in mourning and only one vehicle is following them.  Furiosa took out their light.  Max is able to beat the people left in the car and bring back guns and ammo.

They move though a boggy area with with people on stilts, four stilts each (hands and feet) that we never learn more about.  Who are they?  They appear peaceful.  Who are these people?

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When they reach Furiosa's people they find that the green place is gone.  The water went bad and the nasty place they just drove through is what was once the green place.  There aren't many left of her people.  Old women on motorcycles.  One not quite so old one.

I love the fact that when her home died around her one of them preserved seeds.  She's tried, but the seeds haven't taken anywhere, but she keeps the seeds.  She's someone who is looking out for the future by preserving the past.  Once she finds fertile soil she's gonna plant those things.

The initial plan is to take the motorcycles further in the same direction, across seemingly endless salt flats on the hope that, on the other side, they'll find something.  They have enough fuel for a hundred and sixty days.  Max doesn't go.  He sees his daughter's ghost with the others, and heads out to them and gets them to stop.  He points out that they have a green place, they know where it is.  The citadel.

With the army after them it isn't defended, Nux is a war-boy so he can bluff that he captured them to get them up to the protected level, and they can take over with minimum risk.  All they have to do is punch through three armies, block off a narrow pass, and not get dead.

Remember, they just got fully armed, so this is the time for a very long, extended, kinetic, momentum aided, fight scene and is fucking awesome.

When the first of Furiosa's people died, in battle, after being impressive, only taken down by being hit by a war-eighteen-wheeler, I commented that she definitely got into Valhalla.  In fact, all of the good guys who die from this point out definitely earned their entrance.

Angharad I'm not sure about because of technical details, she actually died during a brief halt in combat of non-combat reasons.  She definitely deserved a good afterlife, but Valhalla has specific rules that I'm not completely clear on the technicalities.

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One of the final great deciding moments involved Cheedo.  Remember her?  The one who wanted to give up, surrender, and go back.

Things are looking bad.  Furiosa is going to fall to her death, Max is, I think, having trouble getting back into the fight, Nux is occupied driving, and pretty much everyone else who can fight is dead or dying.

Cheedo surrenders.  People are shocked and dismayed at her defection, until, when there are people who might kill her in front and behind, she gives Furiosa the hand up needed.

I like this.  I like this so damned much.  She has no skills whatsoever that apply to the situation, she isn't able to help with the fighting, but she does an incredibly brave, high risk thing because something that she can do is offer someone a hand, and that allows Furiosa to get back into the fight and thus results in their ultimate victory.

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Nux died blocking the pass.  The initial plan of deception can't work.

Furiosa needs blood to live, Max provides it.  The movie begins with Max's blood being taken from him against his will, it ends with him giving it up for free.

Showing the warlord's dead body rallies the commoners to their side because he was an asshole.

But getting up is a problem.  And here is another thing that's nice.  The adults in power don't know what to do.  The above ground fortress doesn't just have adults though.  The warboys come from somewhere.  It is the children being indoctrinated into being child soldiers who crave fiery death are the ones who give passage to Furiosa and her crew.

Max separates from the others to go off on his own, but unlike the other Mad Max movies he isn't on his own.  He's in a crowd of the common people.  Common people who will no longer be kept in destitution.

The water is delivered to the masses by the women who were kept as slaves to be milked.

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Random other things:

Prayers to whatever gods are listening are prayers that I have prayed myself.  It was nice to see it.

With the Norse references there's a good chance that Furiosa ending up as one eyed and apparently in charge was an Odin reference.  She'd make a good king of the gods.

I wish there had been more of her story.  She's the only female driver, she's the only woman we see with any power.  How did she attain that position?  It presumably involved compromising her morals a lot.  She says she's hoping for redemption.  I think that's why she took the "breeders" even though she'd have a better chance of making it if she hadn't.  She hoped that she could make up for some of what she did to survive.

I wish there had been more of how Angharad convinced Furiosa to take them, and how they even got on to the truck.  They were pretty thoroughly secured.  It had to be part prison break part heist.

Stealing the poor from the rich may well be the most noble form of theft in existence (assuming you give the poor their freedom) and yet I feel like it's underrepresented in our fiction.

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Stuff.

Saturday, June 6, 2015

The sound of one hand clapping

So kōans came up and the only I know best is, "What is the sound of one hand clapping?"

This, though, isn't a kōan anymore.  We know.

In music a clapper has two pieces of wood to be the hands connected by a joint of some kind, often times a hinge.  It makes sense, since it basically does what hands do to clap.  It doesn't help us answer the question of one hand clapping because it has two "hands".

In party favors a clapper is something like this:



The important thing to notice about it is that it has three hands.  Wave it back and forth and it will produce the sound of three hands clapping.

This we can work with.

Now that we know the sound of three hands clapping, and given that the sound of two hands clapping is a known quantity, the sound of one hand clapping can be discovered via simple subtraction.

Friday, June 5, 2015

What would you like me to get back to?

I have a lot of unfinished projects because finishing projects isn't really something that I do that much or that well.

If I had world enough and time (and inspiration and energy and effort) I'd return to them all and they'd become a bunch of finished projects.

Even then, though, I couldn't return to them all at once.  Some things would have to come first.

So, I have the question of this post.  What would you, commenters, lurkers, and any other assorted readers that don't fit into that category, like me to return to?  Are there any stories you particularly want a fresh installment of?

Thursday, June 4, 2015

The wrong emotions - Story Idea

Take a setting where it isn't complete bullshit to represent someone's emotions as individual beings with their own personalities.  Maybe the person is an alien or a supernatural creature or some such.

Since the emotions are distinct things they could conceivably be kidnapped.

Our story begins when the person's emotions have been sucked out except for few negative ones.  Now it's up to Fear, Depression, and Apathy to save the day.

I'm thinking that the story would involve person in whose head emotions are being attacked to suck out the ones the badguy thinks represent a threat, and then her girlfriend is kidnapped for experimentation.

Fear has a leg up because whenever Courage came out to play in the past fear was right there with her.  (You can't have courage without fear.)  That said, Fear is still Fear and so motivation is mostly along the lines of, "Not rescuing [girlfriend] is way more scary than those admittedly scary weapons."


So you get decision making processes that go like this.

Fear: Those energy turrets are really scary... but if we don't go we won't be able to save [girlfriend]; that's terrifying!  We have to go!

Depression: We'll never survive.

Fear: Apathy, do we care if we die?

Apathy: meh.

Fear: Exactly.  Anyway, Depression, if we stay here will things be ok?

Depression: No.  Everything will turn out horribly.

Fear: So it's decided: we go.  Now!  Before it's too late.

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When the character steered by Fear et al. confronts bad guy it should probably be somewhat disturbing because a character who is driven by sheer terror, and who is "meh" when it comes to the possibility of doing unspeakable things is in a position to end that terror by snuffing out the one causing it and as for how other people might look at character after doing unspeakable things, depression would be convinced that character will be despised by everyone no matter what.

And in the end what I see reigning that back in would be more fear.  Fear of what girlfriend would think, fear of what might be lost by crossing those lines.  Blah.

And then the other aspects of the personality are returned.  Fear gives Courage a big hug.  Depression feels a bit good but maintains that it won't last, and Apathy is "meh."

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Wednesday, June 3, 2015

An update (finances and stuff)

Today I'm under the weather.  Feel sick.  I think I picked up what one of the kids had.  He's pretty much better.  Today was the second day he had to stay home from school, but after getting several hours more sleep than he usually does he seems to have bounced back.

I've been meaning to give a bit of an update moneywise for a while, right now, when I don't feel like I should be moving, seems an ideal time.

In addition to reducing my supplement by $200 they determined that they over paid me by more than four thousand.  The good news: the don't want it back all at once (though they're open to the possibility.)

The bad news:they're taking it out of my supplement to the tune of $70.  I don't have the figures in front of me right now, so I son't know how much over $4,000 they think they over paid me (could be closer to $5,000), but $4,000 even would take five years to pay off at that rate.  That't the lower limit.  The upper limit is sa ix years (there was rounding involved.)

I haven't mentioned the $200 a month problem, that's now a $270 dollar a month, because I thought that somebody had saved me from it by setting up a monthly donation to fill the gap.  Something must have gone wrong with it because it only happened once.  At the time the second monthly donation should have come in I was too distracted and stressed about other things to even notice, but looking back I can see that only the first one came in.

Things have actually been kind of ok because I got multiple donations from mid April to May first which managed to fill the hole that had already been created by the reduced payment and the period without food supplement.

In many ways the money that I'm no longer getting is the amount I needed for non-monthly bills.  So I'd save up during the months they weren't due so I could pay them when they were.

So the $200 hole, soon to be adjusted to $270, will be a big problem soon, but it's not stressing my day to day life right now.

Withdrawing from most classes after the first semester from hell means that I wasn't a full time student which means that I have to start making payments my student loan.  I only have one so, as student debt goes, it's not that much: $5,657.40  Minimum payment is between 50 and 60 dollars a month.  I don't remember the interest rate.

I probably have a month or two (including this one) before major disaster looms.

That's basically where things stand.

If I dwell on things it'll probably negatively affect the blog, but if I manage not to things should be ok until the manure hits the turbine.

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Obviously donations are quite welcome provided that you can spare whatever you send my way, but the primary point of this post is just to have an update on what's going on.  I felt like one was overdue.