What I do and what I want

So, obviously, I don't want to take away from people looking at my most recent fiction.  I like my fiction, it's what I do.  I'm a fiction maker.  Even if it often draws on other people's fiction, as that example does, and therefore can't ever be sold.

It is not, however, all that I do.  I was surprised at the fact that I've never talked about what I do with puzzles here.  I only realized after I did the post about the new tiny cubes being 2mm larger (in each of three dimensions) than the old tiny cubes and wanted a post to link to to show I'm not exactly ignorant about this stuff.  Couldn't find one.

Here's a page from my shapeways shop.  My shapeways shop where no one has ever bought anything.

I designed and built that.  It's the last thing I built.  See the price tag?  3d printing is still prohibitively expensive.  It has as many parts and uses as much plastic as 3 ordinary Rubik's cubes so, based on what they cost, you'd expect it to run from 24 to 45 dollars.  A lot for a puzzle, but not three fucking hundred.  And that 300 price doesn't include stickers, springs, screws, washers, and a core (a core costs 70¢ so it's no big deal.)

I've been out of the game so fucking long.  I want to do a review of the new official rubik's cubes because they've upped their game like whoa for the first time in my life.

I want to do an image post showing the small handful of puzzles I have made so the unaccountable absence of my puzzle work on this blog can begin to be remedied.

But that's not all I want to do.

I want to talk about my, almost certainly doomed from the start, plan to attempt to make a game engine.

I want to return to stories that languish.

I want to ask people about the possibility of me setting up a patron which might allow me to have a predictable monthly income (if people were willing to pledge.)

I want to know if people think a kickstarter to get my puzzles injection molded, and thus at a decent price, would have a chance working.

I want to do a review of the movie with saber-tooth monkeysaurs.

I want to watch .hack//Sign and bring you along for the ride.

I want to return to the fun of manipulating images.

I want to do so much I don't even know where to start.

I want to stop just surviving and start living a life I'm proud of.

I want to fucking shine.

I want to be able to go in six directions at once and not have the result be six failed attempts at stuff.

I want to somehow convince my readers to make more noise in the comment section.

I want to learn guitar.

I want to do things I've never talked about with images, and things I've rarely talked about with language.

I want to rediscover the joy and wonder of reading books, even as I fear that it is dead, embalmed, and buried.

I want to be able to share all of this with the people who know me online.  The people who have been my lifeline when I thought I was doomed.  The people who have kept me connected to the world when I couldn't make myself leave the house.

I want to finish the index overhaul I meant to do a year or two ago so that you can actually navigate this place.

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I want to do all these things and more, but I have no idea where we go from here.