tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3889388775673754833.post1508490856190913248..comments2024-02-24T03:34:18.060-05:00Comments on Stealing Commas: My hoped for future doesn't existchris the cynichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06872875475212333027noreply@blogger.comBlogger10125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3889388775673754833.post-32833696364977638802012-08-16T18:14:08.230-04:002012-08-16T18:14:08.230-04:00You're welcome.
It's good to know one'...You're welcome.<br /><br />It's good to know one's not alone. Thanks for saying something.chris the cynichttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06872875475212333027noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3889388775673754833.post-76923781669005342622012-08-16T17:53:13.553-04:002012-08-16T17:53:13.553-04:00TW: this reply is from an also-depressed person, t...<b>TW: this reply is from an also-depressed person, talking about her depression. Probably not a good read on the bad days; I'm sorry to Chris and other depressed persons for this. </b><br /><br />I would like to thank you for writing this, because I am in a place where these are almost my exact feelings. I know that it's not a good place, and I am trying to get help. At the moment it's not really helping, but perhaps in the future it will. <br /><br />But I just wanted to tell you that your honest posts about your depression really have helped me to feel like I'm not alone and not a freak of nature. (Mine is also of the variety that sometimes takes an hour and a half to take a shower, because you take a towel off the wall then spend twenty minutes thinking about it and staring into space and helpless to actually complete the action that maybe you started an intention for. Mine is the unpretty variety, the type that it's tough to explain to people because <i>why the hell don't you just do it, you've had the time and it's not that tough...</i>). Yeah, I just wanted to thank you for making me feel not-so-alone. There are other people who struggle with the things that I'm currently struggling with, and it's heartening to know that. For fifteen years previous, I had believed I was the only one who experienced depression in this way: not as sadness, but as an inability to act even if I wanted to (many thanks to the mental health professionals who tacitly encouraged this belief). Reading your journey has given me tremendous hope, because it's the first account I've read that very much seems like my own. <br /><br />So yes, thank you for putting this online. I've cried a couple times with how closely you describe the arcs and trenches of my own feelings, but it's the first account I've found that is even close to what I've been working through. <br /><br />Thank you. So much.Joyehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02293317944407625379noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3889388775673754833.post-84801991406123588792012-07-31T07:02:48.754-04:002012-07-31T07:02:48.754-04:00More virtual hugs here. (And, in the event you fin...More virtual hugs here. (And, in the event you find yourself visiting the UK, give me a shout.)<br /><br />I'm with Lonespark: I'm not a psych, but getting the weeping out - and yeah, sometimes that can take <i>months</i> - sounds in principle like a good thing.Firedrakenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3889388775673754833.post-29457234587908785632012-07-28T22:01:36.270-04:002012-07-28T22:01:36.270-04:00First, I am so sorry about how you are feeling. No...First, I am so sorry about how you are feeling. Not in a "I think I might be at fault" sort of way, but in a "I have an idea of how you are feeling because I have felt the same way before" sort of way. Unfortunately, I know that I can't necessarily say anything to make it better, especially as I am an almost-anonymous internet poster. So, the best I can do is *virtual hugs*<br /><br />Second, happy birthday! I saw your post on the 'verse, but did not have a chance to reply to it. Unfortunately, I live nowhere near Maine(Colorado). <br /><br />Thirdly, thank you for the kind words on the Marchons thread. Once again, I did not actually see that post until after the thread had closed. <br /><br />Finally, more *hugs*St. Jebusnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3889388775673754833.post-25298087068619082292012-07-28T10:59:10.000-04:002012-07-28T10:59:10.000-04:00This was written with nothing but me and the compu...This was written with nothing but me and the computer, not distractions. The only interruptions were when I couldn't go on typing. So no worries.<br /><br />For me, I know they might not have commented on my posts, I know we might not have talked any more if I'd managed to be more active. But that was part of the dream, that was the hope.<br /><br />Except the place where that dream takes place doesn't exist anymore. Like the farm it has changed. Maybe the changes will turn out to be for the better, but the hope and the dream are based on the temporally impossible. When I'm healthy (in the future) I'll do these things in that place (but that place only exists in the past.)<br /><br />All four examples:<br />The farm<br />The dead forum<br />The slacktiverse<br />The live forum<br /><br />I have hopes and dreams associated with, and in every case they're associated with a version of the thing that simply doesn't exist anymore. Maybe if the thing did still exist the hopes an dreams still couldn't come to pass (I've definitely got things like that) but the fact that these things are based on a past now gone just sort of drives the point home.<br /><br />-<br /><br />As for commenting, my position here is that it's <i>never</i> too late to comment. Other people have other expectations though, there's no universal rule.<br /><br />-<br /><br /><i>I have this feeling like WE'VE GONE TOO FAR TO TURN BACK NOW about a lot of innappropriate things.</i><br /><br />Perhaps you could counter with, "Could we start again please?" Not sure how you feel about Jesus Christ Superstar tough.chris the cynichttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06872875475212333027noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3889388775673754833.post-106258277637722872012-07-28T10:36:39.801-04:002012-07-28T10:36:39.801-04:00That's what my time with depression has taught...<i>That's what my time with depression has taught me: don't think about it. It's probably not healthy</i><br /><br />Hmmm. Well, it certainly is worth discussing with your psych, but it doesn't sound unhealthy to me. It sounds like a healthy thing that is harder for to pull off than it is for some people, so you have a coping strategy and you cope. Dwelling on the past doesn't work for humans when we try to move along in the present. We each have our own values for "dwelling," and "move along," I guess...Lonesparkhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16278753827545905559noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3889388775673754833.post-42777645028646895002012-07-28T10:33:50.613-04:002012-07-28T10:33:50.613-04:00This part is all about me:
(At first I was afraid...This part is all about me: <br />(At first I was afraid you were writing this when I was trying to talk you on FB and I inerrupted you being really sad and I felt awful about it. But the timestamp doesn't seem to reflect that, so I hope it's not the case.)<br /><br />I very much hear you on The Slacktiverse. I have a bunch of guest post submissions started. But I wonder what's the point. If I can't write about experiences of Christianity and have comments from hapax, or about representations of African American womanhood in animated films (ok, I kind of made that up; I don't really have a post about that right now) or statistics, or unions, or...and have comments from mmy, etc., then why would I post at The Slacktiverse? <br /><br />On the one hand it's kind of silly, because whose to say hapax would commment on my post anyway? Real life can always interefere, or folks just might not feel like it. I never posted my long involved opinions on the awesomeness of Amarie's guest posts, because I was busy doing something off the net when they went up, and by the time I got to focus on it, the site had moved on. (That's crappy; why not actually comment and engage, even just as a sign of my appreciation for her work? I have this feeling like WE'VE GONE TOO FAR TO TURN BACK NOW about a lot of innappropriate things.)Lonesparkhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16278753827545905559noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3889388775673754833.post-72286721539152110502012-07-28T00:20:02.724-04:002012-07-28T00:20:02.724-04:00*virtual hugs*
I saw your note on Slacktiverse abo...*virtual hugs*<br />I saw your note on Slacktiverse about your birthday. I'm nowhere near Maine, but... happy (early) birthday, and I hope you have a great time and can see or otherwise talk with your friends.Evannoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3889388775673754833.post-26977244594062789762012-07-27T13:17:49.350-04:002012-07-27T13:17:49.350-04:00I do accept virtual hugs.
If things went right yo...I do accept virtual hugs.<br /><br />If things went right you should have an email from me now.<br /><br />Also, so things aren't all gloom, it may be worth looking at <a href="http://stealingcommas.blogspot.com/2012/07/rejoice-rejoice-we-have-no-choice.html" rel="nofollow">the very next post</a> if you have not already.chris the cynichttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06872875475212333027noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3889388775673754833.post-69641802757205245122012-07-27T12:10:03.187-04:002012-07-27T12:10:03.187-04:00Do you accept virtual hugs?
You are more eloquent...Do you accept virtual hugs?<br /><br />You are more eloquent on (apparent) bad days than I manage to be on good days.<br /><br />I did't want to leave my email 'over there' but cjmr AT livejournal DOT com should redirect to my primary email address. Happy soon to be your birthday!<br /><br />cjmrAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com